God will wait as long as it takes for us.

— Rev. R. Walters

Whenever we try to understand, analyze, or probe too much into the reasons for love, we damage it. All that can really be done with love is accept it.

God loves us. We are loved. Regardless of all painful experiences we may have had that convinced us love never lasts, or that love may be fine for others but it just doesn’t work for us – regardless of what we may have learned of love – God loves us.

There is a lovely parable in Scripture about the lost sheep and the steadfast love of the shepherd. When the one sheep became lost, as the parable goes, the shepherd did not simply write it off as the cost of doing business. The shepherd searched diligently until the lost sheep was found. No mention is made of scolding, abuse, or punishment – simply the joy the shepherd felt at finding one of his own that was lost.

We are as loved as that lost sheep; and, at times, as lost. Whether we feel we are worth it or not, the Shepherd patiently, faithfully searches us out. We cannot outrun God’s reach.

Today, I ask God to deepen my faith.

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves.

–Rainer Maria Rilke

We carry problems and discrepancies within us, quandaries that are not easily answered – and we have bigger questions about life and the world. Why did I act as I did in my younger years? Can my life partnership be happy again? How should I handle a secret that I carry? What is this thing we call Higher Power and God?

We are on a journey and, in some ways, this journey is a quest for answers. The questions give energy and direction to our seeking. We cannot expect to get quick or easy answers. And some questions will always remain just that: questions. But we can learn to be patient with ourselves, tolerant of our incompleteness, and always curious about how it will all turn out.

Today I will practice patience with myself and embrace my unsolved questions as crucial elements in my quest.

In sobriety, I have learned that I don’t need to know the answers. I am only in control of my own actions today. I am powerless over other people, places, and things. I am powerless over the outcome. I have power over my own actions. Therefore, I pray and meditate on a daily basis, ask for feedback and direction from friends and my Higher Power, then I surrender and let things play out. Everything always works out the way it’s supposed to. Living life and being on this journey is much more enjoyable when I surrender and let things play out.