When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.

–Franklin Delano Roosevelt


Initially, I was excited about recovery. I felt better for a while. I hate to say it, but now that I’m not at the beginning any more, everything seems worse. I feel more cynical than ever.


What you’re experiencing is part of the process of recovery. Many of us go through a “honeymoon” phase in early recovery. Our craving may feel miraculously lifted. Change feels easy, and hope replaces despair.

Then, life feels difficult again. We may perceive ourselves as having gotten worse, but that’s not accurate. What’s really happening is that, though our addictive craving has been treated, we still have our old problems, habits, and states of mind. We may be getting through the day, showing up for our work responsibilities, attending 12-step meetings, but not having much fun. We may wonder if what we’ve heard is really true – that “our worst day in recovery is better than our best day of active addiction.” We may wonder whether recovery really is the answer after all.

Our doubt makes clear to us that we have to do something. Staying where we are is too uncomfortable. We can attend a 12-Step meeting and read program literature to begin to familiarize ourselves with our next Step. For spirits in need of healing, 12-Step work leads to the next phase of recovery.

Today, I have the courage to move forward in my journey of recovery.

Working an active 12-step program of recovery is imperative to my ongoing recovery. When I first got clean and sober, I fully immersed myself into the recovery process. I started going to meetings, I got a sponsor, and I started working the steps. Further, I made lots of friends that were in recovery. My first year of sobriety, I spent most of my time doing recovery related activities. Or doing things with people that were in recovery anyways. I learned how to have fun with people in recovery. I learned to have fun without drugs and alcohol. Being sober 4 ½ years, I continue to work an active program of recovery. I go to 12-step meetings on a regular basis, I have a sponsor that I connect with almost daily, I have sponcees that I work with, I have a home group, and I have several services commitments. There are several other things I do that compliment my recovery as well. This includes morning prayer and meditation, staying connected to my Higher Power throughout day, yoga and exercise, a healthy diet, and getting enough sleep. As long as I continue to work an active program of recovery and as long as I stay spiritually fit, I will not have the desire to drink or use drugs.

Some things we think are bad may be good.

— Harry Bartholomew

Making hasty judgments about people can be detrimental. We quickly decide if an invitation to dinner is worth our time, or maybe we pass up an opportunity to engage in a book club or get acquainted with a prospective friend simply because we are a bit fearful. Does it really make sense to so quickly dispense with the people or the possibilities that beckon when we have so much time to spare?

While it is true that some opportunities may not be good, we can’t make educated judgments about anything without at least a modicum of exposure. It’s by design that we are still here, in this life, in these bodies. Perhaps we should be more open and trust the Grand Designer. Quietly seeking our inner voice will tell us what to do.

No doubt we have all regretted passing up opportunities after hearing of another’s experiences with them. That doesn’t have to be the standard for our lives, though. Careful contemplation coupled with some quiet meditation will always guide us appropriately. Taking the time to fully consider an option allows us to cull the good from the bad.

I don’t have to accept every invitation that comes my way, but I can be open to new options. 

When I first read the quote, “some things we think are bad may be good’, I start thinking about the challenges I have faced. I think about when my girlfriend and I broke up. I think about the car accident I got into. I think about my ex-wife leaving me. I think about filing Chapter 7. All of those things may have seemed bad at the time. However, all of those life experiences have contributed to the person I am today. For example, my wife leaving me is the final straw that led me to sobriety. Some good comes from all life experiences. I am grateful that I am open and willing to see that. I am grateful for my life in sobriety today.

We currently have one scholarship bed available at Camelback Recovery.

The normal all-inclusive pricing is as follows:

$1500 per month = twin bed

$1600 per month = double bed

$1800 per month = queen bed

In the interest of comparing apples to apples, I want to break down the monthly fee at Camelback Recovery. Food is valued at $600 per month (this is conservative considering the quality of food provided at the home). Here is the breakdown:

$1500 = monthly fee

$600 = meals/food

$900 = monthly fee not including food

There are 4.43 weeks in a month. So $900/4.43 = $203. Therefore, the monthly fee of $1500 at Camelback Recovery translates to a weekly fee of $203.

Currently, we have one scholarship bed available, one twin bed available, and one queen bed available. 

The food situation at Camelback Recovery is better than it has ever been. Dinner is prepared 5 nights per week and breakfast and lunch meals are prepped and ready to go. 

Please call 602-751-4866 with questions or to setup a tour or email info@camelbacksoberliving.com.

Thank you!